However, this week I’ve been seeing more and more stressful things behind going to college. How should I put this… I’ve been seeing the scary things.
The first part is paying for it - the whole $80,000 of debt that I will be accumulating isn’t too appealing. Granted, my parents have offered to help pay for my first year. Their exact words were, “If you leave the house and live on campus, the first year is paid for.” Seems like a good deal to me… And I’m sure them as well. Nothing like bribery, right?
But past that, I’m stumped. You would think that my 4.0 grade point average, 24 ACT score, and numerous extracurricular activities would help in my attempts to get financial aid, however, I’ve received very little help thus far, and let me tell you, it is a little discouraging. I am applying for scholarships and such, however, the part that always gets me is the “financial need.”
If you ask me, I think I need financial need, however, Ohio University seems to be disagreeing with me, I mean, come on, I’m a twin! There’s two of us! That has to be in my favor somehow. It’s like getting buy one get one free shoes at Payless, buy one tuition get the other one free? I think that is a splendid idea! Like I said before, OU isn’t really buying that one either.
So for now, I’m just stressing and filling out numerous scholarship applications, with hopefully some success in the future.
On to my next item of worrying - leaving home. Granted, my parents are so excited they are willing to pay for me to spread my own wings and fly, but I’m not so convinced… I think the whole idea of having my own shower, bed, and amenities will be very much missed. Sharing a bathroom with numerous other people isn’t the most appealing thing in the world, but I’ll just have to suffer through it… Especially sharing a room with someone else. I mean, I’ve lived in the same room as my sister from day one, but this will be different. I suppose that is something I will have to get over as well... maybe I’m too high maintenance?
But, I think the thing that is going to take the most getting used to is being away from my normal life, my friends, my job and my family. It is going to be so weird knowing that I won’t be able to call up my best friend to go to Walmart so I don’t have to go alone. Granted, it’s good that we are all going to do what we want, but it’s going to be weird being so separated. Yes, I’m aware you are supposed to make new friends, but I’m pretty partial to the ones I have now.
Being miles away from my home will probably be the hardest part of leaving, but I guess I’ll be making a new home wherever I end up living. A very expensive home at that… oh, college.
Well, these are just a few of the worries I’ve had this week. I’m sure there will be plenty more the closer I get to graduation. Which might I add, is coming way to fast… So for anyone reading this who knows what I’m talking about, all the worries that are running through my head, let me know what you think, give me some advice. I may be write sometimes, but I still need some guidance every now and then… #teenageproblems…
Published: March 4, 2012